Thursday, January 29, 2009
Confessions
Afew more minutes and it will be 30january
The journey i will take...
Will i be happy? Or Will i be miserable for the rest of my life?Will i achieve my Dreams? Or Will i not?
Alot of things had happen...
Good or Bad
Im not sure about any of it...
But i do know that that's a big nightmare, even Vampires are'nt that scary...
Thanks to my 'Wise' decision.
Everything seems normal...Nobody notices anything 'cause i've been doing the same thing every single day! Nothing new,Nothing Different. SSDD rite Fuad? =)
Fuad,this is specially for you:
Hey there,its very good that u have move on..As a friend,i'm very very happy for u..On the other hand,i would like to really apologise for all the pain that i had caused..U r a very patient guy yet funny(i got c5 for english,hope u dun mind my language)..U've been like always there whenever i need someone to talk too..I really appreciate you very much..n I really felt guilty for what i've done for the past 2years..Its very long..U have seen me with many different person..I really don't know how u can still be patient and still be my friend..I wanted to tell u all of this in person but i'm just too scared..Yea,i'm a coward..I never want to lose a friend like you..But i feel guilty everytime i sms you..So i decided to tell everything i had want to say since early this year here,in my blog..Really hope you forgive all the sins that i've done to you..Yea,'sorry' can't undone anything but i'm hoping that you will forgive all the pain that i caused..
Well another person that i've hurt badly is my x..He's a good person..Seriously..But somehow i really don't want to be with him..I myself don't know why..At 1st when i saw him,i thought that i will be very happy with him..But After a year passed,i realised that he is not my choice..I just couldn't forget my sec2 x-haziq..Its stupid n embarassing..I couldn't move on..Even with a new guy..I started to give excuse for not calling or meeting him..At that time,I use Olevel as an excuse..Now,Serve me Right,I got exactly the same point as him..19..Am i cursed? I really felt like i am..But i still believe in Allah ofcoures..Maybe this is a retribution for hurting him..Serve me right again..Haiz..I really felt sorry for hurting him..
In afew more hours,i will know the course i get..I'm scared..My x told me before that he thinks that with my attitude and anti-social life,i won't make it to Poly..I'm seriously scared..Is it true or is it not true?
Is there a light in my future or will it be just darkness n nightmares?
Will i make it? Or will i not make it?
bitten at 7:30 AM
